3 THINGS

Listing three things that made me happy today

1. Going to Tze Wei's house for CNY visiting with Winnie. His parents were warm and friendly, very hospitable and welcoming. We played blackjack and I didn't lose any money, helped uncle win lots of money, and had a fun time.

2. Meeting Gen and Su Lynn today. It's always hard to meet up with these two babes, because they study in different faculties and they need to study a lott :( I always feel happier meeting my BFFs (Charis and Sam too) because they make me feel familiar with myself. It's like back to the good old Sec 4 days when we had each other's constant company, and were always having fun together.

3. Going to Sam's dance concert, CACTUS, and seeing so many young people (just like me) performing happily on stage and loving what they do. It made me remember that my youth only comes once, and I should make the best use of it. Love what I do, and put my heart and soul into it. Celebrate it, and be happy! Canoe Polo to me, now, seems more like a burden than a joy. It used to be my getaway from school, and I wish to bring that feeling back. I want to love the times that I have left with it, and I want to push myself to be the best I can be at it. I hope that not only in my sport, but in every aspect of my life, that I can remember to just do my best and love what I do. Be it finding accounting entries for hedging instruments, going to Canoe Polo trainings, going for interviews, etc etc I hope I remember that everything is an experience I get to keep for life, and I want to make the best out of it. There is no need to be afraid, no need to be so mindful of other people. Just like the performers today who thoroughly enjoyed being on stage, I hope my life can be filled with moments of celebration as well.

And now, I am going to tackle my hedging tutorial! :-)

Love,
xin hui

2016 REFLECTIONS

2016 was honestly the hardest year for me. I have had countless times of breaking down, and losing all my sense of self worth at so many points. School was not easy, training was tiring me out especially since my passion is clouded by other stuff, my friends seem to be so distant, and everything really was just in a mess.

I almost thought I had depression in 2016 haha. I can only hope that I can put a closure to the troubles and walk away stronger from it all. In 2017, I really hope to practice self love and stop worrying about other people so much. I also hope to pick up more speed on my studying and to be able to make myself proud in upcoming canoe polo competitions.

Of course, there were amazing moments in 2016. Travelling to Seoul and Europe, Saturday dinners with my family, fun times spent with friends and some lessons learned.

May 2017 be a fruitful year.

Love,
xinhui